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istri yg km nikahi, tidaklah semulya Khadijah

tidak setaqwa Aisyah

pun tidak setabah Fatimah

istrimu hanyalah wanita akhir zaman

yang punya cita2 menjadi wanita solehah

 

pernikahan mengajarkan kita kewajiban bersama

seandainya istrimu tulang yang bengkok

berhati hatilah meluruskannya

 

suami yang menikahimu

tidaklah semulya Muhammad SAW

tidak setaqwa Ibrahim

pun tidak setabah Ayyub

suamimu hanya pria akhir zaman

yang pny cita2 membangun keturunan yg soleh

suamimu adalah nahkoda kapal dan kamu navigasinya

seandainya suami lupa

bersabarlah mengingatkannya

 

love the way you lie – eminem feat rihanna

“Love The Way You Lie”
(feat. Rihanna)

[Chorus – Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
I can’t tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it’s a steel knife in my windpipe
I can’t breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it’s like I’m in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It’s like I’m huffing pain and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I’m about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
“I’m leaving you”
No you ain’t. Come back we’re running right back.
Here we go again
It’s so insane cause when it’s going good, it’s going great
I’m Superman with the wind at his back, she’s Lois Lane
But when it’s bad it’s awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who’s that dude? I don’t even know his name
I laid hands on her, I’ll never stoop so low again
I guess I don’t know my own strength

[Chorus – Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you’re with ’em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit ’em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get ’em
Now you’re getting fucking sick of looking at ’em
You swore you’d never hit ’em; never do nothing to hurt ’em
Now you’re in each other’s face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push pull each other’s hair, scratch claw hit ’em
Throw ’em down pin ’em
So lost in the moments when you’re in them
It’s the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you’re best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don’t know you ’cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it’s a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don’t get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that’s why they call it window pane

[Chorus – Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem]
Now I know we said things, did things that we didn’t mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper’s just as bad as mine is
You’re the same as me
But when it comes to love you’re just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn’t you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn’t as crazy as it seems
Maybe that’s what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don’t you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I’m pissed, I’ll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time. There won’t be no next time
I apologize even though I know its lies
I’m tired of the games I just want her back
I know I’m a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im’a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I’m just gonna

[Chorus – Rihanna:]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that’s alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that’s alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

 

bad romance – lady gaga

“Bad Romance”

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want your leather-studded kiss in the sand
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh–oh-oh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers’ revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as you’re mine
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love-uuhh)

I want your psycho
Your vertigo stick
Want you in my rear window
Baby you’re sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
(Love-love-love I want your love)

You know that I want you
(‘Cause I’m a free bitch baby!)
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, bad romance

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
(Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!)
I want your love and
All your lovers’ revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy

Walk, walk passion baby
Work it
I’m a free bitch, baby

I want your love and
I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

Je veux ton amour
Et je veux ta revanche
J’veux ton amour
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I don’t wanna be friends
(Caught in a bad romance)
I don’t wanna be friends
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance!

I want your love and
I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
I want your love and
All your lovers’ revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)
Want your bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh-oh-oh!
Want your bad romance
(Caught in a bad romance)

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-roma-mamaa!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

 

Pregnant ^_^

Sabtu 13 november 2010, q tes kehamilan pake “sensitive” jam 11.30 aq positif hamil. Aq iseng2 tes, cz targetQ hamil n pny anak usia 23thn..n kebetulan tgl 6 november minggu lalunya aq baru ultah. sX lg alhamdulillah..thx to GOD!biz tes aq gemeteran..sendirian..sepi diruma gag ad orang..takut..nangis..seneng..wez tumplek blek rasany waktu itu!tp setelah aq solat duhur..aq jd agak tenang..mampu menguasai diri.hahaha itu uda kc kabar jg ma suami n org ruma..brrrr,,,,

Selang beberapa hari aq coba cek ke dokter sugeng,, n ternyata bener..uda ada kantung di rahimQ..n ternyata usia kandungan uda hamper 2bulan!alhamdulillah..lgi2 aq ucap syukur.

Sebenernya b4 aq th kal lg bunting, aq uda persiapan mimic susu prenagen esensis bwt yg ngerencanain kehamilan..jd skrg aq ganti  ma susu prenagen yg emesis..

Alhamdulillah slama 3bulan pertama aq g muntah2 kya bumil lainnya..makaq jd sring meski porsinya dikit2..mulai minum vit yg tinggi asam folat jg bwt sii imud, mulai baca surat alquran yg Muhammad selaen tadarus, cz suamiQ pgn putra pertamanya..cowo,,padahal aq pgn nya cwe,nah loe?!

Sempet bedrest 2 mingguan kayanya gara2 ngevlek,,tp gag smp keguguran,,cm ad ancaman keguguran az. Gara2 aq kecapekan n salah posisi “..”.hehehe

Sekarang usia kandunganQ uda 4 bulan..banyak doa n harapan yg aq ucap bwt sii imud. Bahkan cari nama bayi pun, n window shopping pernak pernik sii imud uda aq lakuin..hehe (katanya pamali y?). clana jeans gag uk.27 uda g muat..alhasil pake clana bumil deh..daleman jg uda minta ganti cz da kekecilan.hehehe

 

Relocated!!

Mendadak oktober suamiQ naeg jabatan n dy dipindah area kerja k Probolinggi. Yapz!alhasil qta balik kandang lagi..hehehe. baru ngontrak ruma 3 bulan d moxer,,qta boyongan lg neh pake truk gede yg diangkut sopir,aiahQ n armadanya..hahaha (aiah yg baeg..)

Sampe prob qta gag lgsg ngontrak rumah..cz ortu masi pada kangen ma qta. Jadinya qta mondar mandir,,3 hari pertama diruma mertua, 3 hari berikutnya diruma mamah..seru,,konyol,,ngaco jg,,qta yg biasanya tinggal berdua dlm 1 rumah,nw jd beramerame..jd kadang2 qta jd kangen ma suasana pas ngontrak rumah dulu, ma guyon2 cekakakan cekikikan smp2 asmaQ kumat!(pasangan yg aneh..)

 

Masak?????

Setelah cuti bwt nikah, aq diboyong k mojokerto, tempat suamiQ kerja..awalnya gag betah cz ternyata mojokerto kota yg kecil, beda bgd ma d sby, berhubung pasutri baru jd qta ngekos kamar sebulan. Baru bulan juli qta ngontrak rumah di perum japan asri.Yapz..kendala pertama..gw gag bsa masak gt loe..haha. awalny masakan gag ad rasanya. Sampe2 aq gag tega ma suamiQ. Ntr kalo dy kurus kering gara2 aq gag bsa masakin menu fav ny kn berabe..mulai dari situ aq bljar pelan2 bwt masak, mulai dari bwa buku masak mamahQ, beli buku masak, tanya2 tetangga, mertwa, tmn, deelel.aq yg awalnya buta ma yg namanya harga2 bahan makanan jd hafal betul ma harga telor, sayur mayur, gula, beras hahaha. Rasa masakan juga uda mulai ada..kadang asin, manis, gurihnya jarang hehehe. Smp skrg pun aq gag berhenti blajar masak..pake alat2 masak yg baru pertama X aq sentuh jg..hehe katrok bgd!belum lage kejadian demi kejadian dimana kekonyolan saat memasak!hwkwkwkwkwk

 

Barokallah,,Ny.Maulana

Kamis pagi qta ritual voto after wedding hahaha..sabtunya resepsi pertama dirumahQ. Q g ngundang bnyk tmn cm tmn kul n sahabat dkt pas skul. Alhamdulillah tmn2 kelasQ pas kul pada dateng,,sng deh,,jd reuni dadakan. Hehehe. Minggunya ganti resepsi diruma mertua..n pertama X inep ruma mertua..

Makasi bwt tmn2 yg uda dtg n ngedoain aq n suamiQ..

 

“jodoh benar2 ditangan ALLAH SWT” part 3

Detik – detik menjelang akad qta jg koordinasi ma KUA, penghulu jg ngurus surat2 ap az gtu..beberapa hari sebelum akad, aq ritual capeng wanita deh..mulai dari luluran,,pake pacar kuku,,creambath,,deelel. Tp y gt tanpa didampingi camiQ cz dy masi kerja di mojokerto. Tp te2p qta komunikasi. Dy jg ngapalin ijab qabul. Haha…

Ne pas rabu tgl 26 Mei 2010,,jam 15.00 rasanya..aiahQ ma camiQ prosesi ijab qabul n aq ngumpet d kamar..uda didandanin,,bikin pangling,wktu itu aq keliatan gemuk,,cz kreasi jilbab yg g biasany.hehe..

Begitu uda pada blg “SAH” baru aq kluar kamar,,dgn hati yg campur aduk,mulai dari dredeg, nervous (pertama X ketemu suami..ihiy..),terharu, seneng, bahagia, deelel..gag bisa diungkapin pake kata2 deh!

Mulai sejak itu..aq bergelar “Ny. Maulana”..

Biz akad qta voto2 deh..tanda tangan surat nikah jg..alhamdulillah..targetQ nikah muda usia 22 thn terkabul. Gag lupa qta makan2..

Mlmnya..biz maghrib qta ngaji bareng, biar “malam pertama” qta dan mlm2 setelah itu, dapat barokah.amin…

Wah..selanjutnya ne dy prosesi “belah duren”,,lebih baeg ne saya simpan sendiri sajah.hahaha

 

“jodoh benar2 ditangan ALLAH SWT” part 2

Setelah dilamar camer,,qta deal gag ada tunangan,,tp langsung lamar nikah,sesuai saran agama. Biz gt qta pada ribet nentuin prosesi akad nikahnya kapan. Tanya sana, Tanya sini..jawaban beda2..apalagi masala weton,,negh ne ne yg bikin q ma camiQ sempet cekcok,,gara2 qta jd “mediator” antar ortu.tp alhamdulillah hal ini gag berlangsung lama. Cz aherny para ortu bertemu n bnr2 nentuin tgl n hari+weton yg co2k. percaya gag percaya c,,qta c cm nurutin mw ny ortu az. Padahal asliny nol potol, gag ngerti blas tentang weton!hahaha..

Setelah deal “hari – H”yg ahernya jatuh pada tgl 26 Mei 2010 (pssstt..blm 1thn pacaran loh),,mulailah qta disibukkan dengan berbagai persiapan jelang pernikahan..seneng siii….heboh gtu..jadinya bolak balik sby-prob.

Mulai dari budget tuk akad n resepsi,, cincin nikah,, mahar,, peningset/seserahan,, undangan,, tata rias,, dekorasi,, fotografi& video,, souvenir,, catering deelel kec voto prewedding (cz qta pgn setelah halal baru voto2 mesra makanya qta ad one day after akad nikah bwt voto2.hehehe)

Awalnya c pgn smua ngurus dewe, berhubung mama aia mw ny diadain di kraksaan, alhasil qta bagi tugas,,hehehe.aq bagian pilih model kebaya akad n resepsi, belanja peningset, cincin nikah, pilih tata rias juga, yg laen ngikut mamah az.

Aq pilih tema untuk akad off white,,tp pas resepsi q pilih red never die..jd mulai dari kebaya, dekorasi, catering is all about red. Padahal aslinya aq love purple very much!!berhubung warna ungu identik dengan warna “janda”, alhasil gagal deh pilih warna ungu untuk jadi dekorasiQ.hehe..nasib..nasib..

 

“jodoh benar2 ditangan ALLAH SWT” part 1

Percaya ato gag,,awalnya aq gag kenal ma suamiQ ne..sXpun qta tmn 1 es-em-pe diKraksaan Probolinggo. Dia jg bukan tipeQ, meski banyak tmn2 cwe Q yg naksir dya. Tp suer aq cm tau dy, n dy tau aq. Tp te2p qta gag saling kenal.

Sampai ahernya pas aq n dy uda sama2 kerja d Surabaya. Eits..tggu dulu, justru qta ketemunya lewat facebook! Nah loh..tiba2 dy ngeadd aq, n pas aq confirm pun, aq blm tau dy itu capa. cz profpict nya di blur gtu..eh tau2 dy kirim message n nmr hp ny,,n gag tau jg..knp aq ko tiba2 misscall dy y?????hehe..nah berawal dari facebook lah,,ahernya qta sering ngewall..es em es an,,tlv2 an..gag lama kug,,berselang 2mggu qta janjian ketemu lgsg jadian n niat serius..ntahlah..sepertinya smua emang uda jalannya..jadinya lancar bgd tanpa hambatan,,alhamdulillah..

Sebulan setelah itu qta saling ngenalin keluarga masing2..n lagi2 capcus..langsung wezh…tau2 uda sama2 mantep mw nikah..minta ijin nikah k ortu kya anak kecil minta permen.hehehe